“Nobody can describe a fool to the life, without much patient self-inspection.” – Frank Moore Colby

Yesterday was inspection day of our Haggled House.

According to my dictionary ( the big hard covered one) not the the (the small soft flimsy paper back version one) …inspect means to view closely in critical appraisal, to examine officially; inspection is the act of inspecting; a checking or testing of an individual against established standards.

LOTS OF GUS stuff going on at my house …… that I don’t really know if I can do anything about anyway until we get the report anyway.  I will just stay away and let grouchy gibberish Gary handle all of this.  (Hang out and put in some productive over time at work) ( Yeah sure…. twirling again in the office assistant chair…this time balancing a nutrigrain bar under my lip instead of a fig newton)

In a few days…

I of course will look at the report…snort… and say no matter what it says….  ”Are you kidding me?” ” There is nothing wrong with my perfectly good house.”  I will compare it to the other one we had.  Supposedly SISSY’s friend is her home inspector.  Do I think that means anything?…. I don’t really know… ( all my friends are teachers) ( even the old ladies) so to call them today probably wouldn’t do anything for me either.  I don’t have any friends, confidants, acquaintances or connections in the publishing field either… and as you know I have been extremely unsuccessful getting my book published ( I guess just as well)…. we are in the middle of the story…..anyway…without the book getting published….

I guess you  can see what a sour mood I am in today…yesterday too…( even a little more moody) ( I think I burst in tears three times)… You know how I don’t deal with being judged very good.  I always expect the worst… Keep your fingers crossed we come to some kind of agreement…. in this step of the process…

I noticed I am trying really hard to stay focused.  Upon patient self inspection I realize I am eating, writing, sleeping and drinking  ( Did I just admit to that…) ( like a fool) even more sporadically than usual. ( But I guess you noticed that… I am begining to miss postings )  (Trying my best ( crying)  in the corner doing my preschool powerful calming mantra)

 Of course I will keep you posted…..during this self inspection time……

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